[this is a post in which I whine about my weight]
I now weigh THIRTY POUNDS more than what I weighed in high school. And that weight (—lbs) was with me until I was about 24ish.
Then I gained some more lbs. But not many more. I was around — for years.
And last year before baby I weighed about —.
I now weigh —.
And to some, that may not sound like a lot.
But I’m ONLY 5’2.
That’s not tall.
And no, I did not just have a baby.
I had a baby over 10 weeks ago.
I’ve been cleared for exercise for 4 weeks.
And have I lost any weight?
NO.
Not even ounces.
It’s depressing.
I’m just being brutally honest.
I don’t want anyone to pat my hair and tell me I’m pretty.
Because fat isn’t pretty.
I’m sorry but it’s not. At least not on me.
My best friend says I’m too hard on myself but EFF.
This is crazy.
I don’t know what to do with all of this weight.
I’m sure several pounds are in my now massive boobs. (hopefully they’ll shrink after I’m done nursing)
But wow.
When I started the page Muffin Top I thought it would be easy.
It’s ridiculous how hard it is to even lose one pound.
I’ve been walking, I started the shred, I don’t sit around and eat a bunch of sh–.
I don’t know.
I’m going to buy running shoes either tomorrow or the next day.
I’m going to teach myself how to run.
I hope it works.
This is nonsense.
I’m such a baby.
People will probably hate me for posting this.
Because to average height people — is nothing.
But REMEMBER, I’m basically five feet tall.
So … I don’t really have much room to cram — into.
Okay…I’m going to go drink water since I realized my wine has 127 calories per small glass.
Peace.
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